BillyBoyLV's House of Crapola

It's finally over

2009-06-26T21:46:51Z

Dad passed yesterday morning. His blood pressure simply dropped and he was gone. As far as I know, he went peacefully, without incident. He was in the hospital for almost 3 weeks. Now we are fighting the fight for ashes so that I can have Thomas with me to scatter Dad's ashes probably next summer. My stepmother won't give me a portion of the ashes because it "divides him up", so I am asking her to either let me have his ashes or to wait to scatter them until next summer. Now I have to wait. His funeral services are tomorrow in Texas. Meanwhile, I am back home.

Back in Texas

2009-06-14T00:26:06Z

I haven't been here in almost two years. This time it is because I got a phone call Sunday saying my dad was in the hospital and I needed to come say goodbye. He was working in the yard last Saturday and the next thing you know he is calling from the yard for help. He was taken to the hospital where he lay on a ventilator for 5 days until I arrived by road. I had to wait til Monday to leave because I had to check out of my classroom for the summer. He looked so horrible. His eyes were rolled back in his head and he was very incoherent. When I got close to him and we were alone I told him it was okay to go with Granny and Grandaddy if they came for him. I asked him later when he was a little more lucid if he was ready to die and if he wanted the tubes removed, and he told me yes. I told my stepsister what he said and she apparently told everyone else now that I want to kill my father and they have tried to make moves to get my dad's medical power of attorney. I understand that they love him and don't want him to die. But he has been sick for almost 5 years now. He has been oxygen after they removed his lung and he has been in the hospital at least 5 times in the last year. This is the first time I have been called and told to come by my aunt who is here. Otherwise, no one had even bothered to call and tell me he was in the hospital.
Luckily my Dad is showing improvement now. They took out the tubes today but he is not talking yet. He also has very little if any motion since being sedated for nearly a week. My dad I think is angry with me. I don't know if he is mad because I was willing to let him go or if he is angry because he wanted to die and I didn't insist that they let him.He was always clear that he didn't want to be on life support. I feel like such a jerk...

No Child Left Behind

2009-04-20T00:14:49Z

As a teacher, I just want to go on the record and say that THIS BILL SUCKS! IMHO, they should NEVER name bills. They should assign them a number and attach a 1-2 sentences summary tag to explain the gist of what it is about. To name a bill No Child Left Behinds is a polarizing move in itself. To vote against a bill with such a name amlounts to political suicide in the longrun. In the bill they name in order to repeal NCLB, they might as well call it "Drown All of the Puppies and Kittens Bill." Because really, who is going to stand up and publicly state they want to "leave a child behind".

Politicians, lobbyists, and people who name bills can be real assholes! (This does not include those of my LJ friends who work for great big government agencies (Legalmoose).

Alone......Ahhhhhhhh..& NAKED NEWS

2009-04-18T04:54:42Z

Due to a never ending deluge of family drama that includes 5 children that are not mine currently living under my roof along with my exwife who has lupus, it has been very difficult lately to take a deep breath without having someone hear it. Well, the ex has gone to Arizona to go to the hospital, taking 3 of the kids to stay at other relatives for a couple of weeks. The two who remain here are at the movies with my mom tonight swooning over uberhottie Zac Efron (I love that hotass Rolling Stone cover he did a ways back, and if that makes me a bit pervy so be it.) So anyway, this gives me a perfect chance to finish the last bit of my masters class since I am alone at the computer. Which explains why I am on LJ instead. I am such a slacker lately I will work tomorrow all day and relish the quiet tonight!
So I am woatching tv and decide to see what is on Pay Per View and they have this thing called Naked News. Okay,so it was only $5.99 and I could not resist the curiosty of what it would be like [even though I am gay and prefer nude dudes instead of gelatin engorged titty television.] PURE DRIVEL!!!!! I laughed my ass off it was so bad. Imagine watching inside edition and as Deborah Norville is spilling the news , she starts to take off her clothes one article at a time until she is standing there completely nude and bald from the neck down (ooooooh! or more like ewwwwwwwwwww!) And the correspondents are not all that hot either. Cellulite and bad lipo, collagen, and nipples the size of tuna cans. IT WAS SO WRONG!! The only thing that could have made it any funnier would have been liquor, drugs, or both. I had to record 5 minutes of it so I can show it to friends to prove it really exists in all its vapid glory!

Rural dating scene

2009-04-14T01:26:40Z

Sometimes it really sucks being a teacher at a rural elementary school when you are gay. There are some majorly hot dads that drop off their kids at school in the morning and pick them up in the afternoon. They are often in various states of dress, ranging from suits and ties to boyshorts with buff, beefy thighs and stretched to the max t-shirts. Unfortunately, in a rural town, if you are dropping off your kiyou are either not gay or if you are you just don't know it or aren't ready to acknowledge.

Oh well. I guess for now it means that I get to slobber and drool at morning playground duty.

DRAT

Long time gone

2009-04-11T03:49:48Z

It has been a long time since I posted. I tried to post earlier today, but nothing has appeared yet. I don't know if that means that I am inept (probably) or if there is a time gap for LJ (possibly). It is really nice to see what has been going on with some of my old friends since I have been incommunicado. I will write more later.

Finally Moving!

2008-01-05T18:51:55Z

After over a year of commuting 90 minutes each way on a daily basis to teach, I am finally moving! I've spent the last week doing various repairs, patches, and painting at the new house. It's only 2 miles from work! Hooray!

It's a foreclosure house, and the people who lived there left all sorts of holes and shit in the walls, and the A/C and hot water had to be replaced. They also loosened some of the plumbing fixtures to make them leaky, so I have had to deal with all of that crap. Luckily, the bank I bought it from fixed most of the things and I have family helping with the rest. I get to move all of the furniture next weekend. I AM SO JAZZED!
:) YAY ME!

I'm going on vacation!!!!!!

2007-07-17T00:45:17Z

Next week I am leaving on vacation for about 3 weeks. Sprout and I are leaving Las Vegas and driving all the way to Southeast Texas. We will probably drive through Arizona and stop with family the first day. Then (if I can get in touch with my beloved Superinsomniac ) we will stay in New Mexico the 2nd night before trekking the rest of the way to Houston the last day. This would save me an oodle of money on motel rooms and allow us to spend more time with my dad becuase we could leave a few days earlier than originally planned.
I haven't seen my dad in about 3 years, and he had to have a lung removed last year. He has steadily lost more air capacity with each successive doctors checkup. Basically this is going to be my last chance to see him before he has to be hospitalized or put in hospice (although we haven't said this aloud). There are alot of memories we want to make before the end, especially so that Sprout can remember some really cool things about his granddad.
:)

If Harvey and Bea made a baby, it would sound like me...

2007-07-10T04:17:58Z

Well, I finally got Sprout's bedroom painted. I locked myself in for several hours with the windows shut and the door closed to keep the paint fumes away from my mom, and primered all of the walls with double and triple coats. Not my finest decision....
For the first week afterward I had no voice hardly at all except for a raspy whisper. I could barely breathe, and I had to sleep sitting up on the couch. My larynx also hurt like hell, like it had been partially cooked and was a nasty lump.
Even now I sound like a cross between Harvey Fierstein and Bea Arthur. It ain't pretty, bitches, not pretty at all. I went subbing today to earn money for my trip to Texas to see my dad and I was in a first grade class. By lunch time, my voice was almost gone.

I am really starting to be afraid that my voice will not be back to normal before school starts at the end of August.

I am afraid to go to a doctor because I don't want bad news. That and I can't really afford a copay and medicine (which will be required I am sure) in addition to the royal screwing I take each month helping with mom's meds and Sprout's doctor appointments.

Wow....It's Only Been 47 weeks since my last post

2007-06-16T01:01:28Z

Damn, I can't believe I haven't posted in almost a year. I read from time to time, but I have been playing the lurker card for WAY TOO LONG. I probably have no friends left online. Let's see, what has been happening?

I made it through my first year of teaching 2nd grade, and it has been really cool. I teach at the school in the town where SuperInsomniacFreak's mom and dad got remarried. I love the town. I have been commuting every day 150 miles roundtrip to do so. My goal this summer is to sell my house here and get moved closer to work for the fall. Sprout has been doing much better in school up there, but he is getting sick of the drive as well.
Also, my ass keeps getting fatter because I snack on the way to and from school in order to stay awake. In the new town, there are lots of opportunities for healthy and fun exercise for Sprout and I both. I really look forward to moving. I adore my school and the kids and the town and all of the cool-as-hell shit they get to do.

Mom is still sick, but maintaining the status quo. Now that I am on summer break, we have been packing up crap and putting it in storage to declutter for potential homebuyers. It sucks royally. I wish we could move and leave the house empty while we wait for a buyer, but we just can't afford to.

I have been prepping Sprout's room to repaint because he thought it was fun to paint orange circles on his wall that look like BREASTS. It's really sad. I am going to kill the child if I find one more booger stuck to the wall. Was I this disgusting as a child? I hope not, but Mom says I was. Yuck!

Anyway, I hope all is well with the friends here. Take care. Write back if you want.
XOXOXOXO BBLV

billyboylv @ 2006-07-16T00:20:00

2006-07-16T00:20:31Z

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now.	× I don't watch much TV these days.	✓ I own lots of books.
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.	× I love to play video games.	✓ I've tried marijuana.
✓ I've watched porn movies. (and have the carpal tunnel to prove it)	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	× I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes.	× I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

* * * * *

× I have broken someone's bones.	✓ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.	× I hate the rain.
× I'm paranoid at times.	× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.	✓ I need/want money right now.
✓ I love sushi.	× I talk really, really fast.	× I have fresh breath in the morning.
× I have long hair.	✓ I have lost money in Las Vegas.	× I have at least one sibling.
× I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	× I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.	× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
× I like the way that I look.	× I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.	× I am usually pessimistic.
× I have a lot of mood swings.	× I think prostitution should be legalized.	× I slept with a roommate.
× I have a hidden talent.	× I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.	× I have a lot of friends.
✓ I have pecked someone of the same sex.	✓ I enjoy talking on the phone.	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
✓ I love to shop and/or window shop.	× I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
✓ I have a mobile phone.	× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.	× I've rejected someone before.
× I currently like/love someone.	× I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.	× I want to have children in the future.
✓ I have changed a diaper before.	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	× I'm not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn.	× I am shy around the opposite sex.	× I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
× I have at least 5 away messages saved.	✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before.	× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
× I own the "South Park" movie.	× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	× I enjoy some country music.
× I would die for my best friends.	× I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
× I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.	× I have dated a close friend's ex.	× I am happy at this moment.
× I'm obsessed with guys.	✓ Democrat.	× Republican.
× I don't even know what I am.	× I am punk rockish.	✓ I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
× I study for tests most of the time.	× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	× I can work on a car.
✓ I love my job(s).	× I am comfortable with who I am right now.	× I have more than just my ears pierced.
× I walk barefoot wherever I can.	× I have jumped off a bridge.	× I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.	× I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.	✓ I am proficient on a musical instrument.
× I hate office jobs.	✓ I went to college out of state.	× I am adopted.
× I am a pyro.	× I have thrown up from crying too much.	✓ I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
× I fall for the worst people.	× I adore bright colours.	× I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.	× I can pick up things with my toes.	× I can't whistle.
✓ I have ridden/owned a horse.	× I still have every journal I've ever written in.	× I talk in my sleep.
× I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	× I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	× I wear a toe ring.
✓ I have a tattoo.	× I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.	✓ I am a caffeine junkie.
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.	× If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.	× I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.	× I'm an artist.	× I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	× I have terrible teeth.
✓ I hate my toes.	× I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.	× I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
✓ I have lived in either three different states or countries.	× I am extremely flexible.	× I love hugs more than kisses.
× I want to own my own business.	× I smoke.	× I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
× Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
× I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	× I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.	× I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
× I have played strip poker with someone else before.	✓ I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.	× I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
✓ I can't stand being alone.	× I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	× I'm a judgmental asshole.	× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
× I have travelled on more than one continent.	× I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.	✓ I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
× I am a Libertarian.	✓ I can speak more than one language.	× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
× I would rather read than watch TV.	× I like reading fact more than fiction.	✓ I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
✓ I have no piercings.	× I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	× There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.	× I like most animals better than most people.
× I own a collection of retro games consoles.	× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	× I have hit someone with a dead fish.
× I am compulsively honest.	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	× I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.	× I dislike milk.	× I obsessively wash my hands.
× I always carry something significant around with me.	× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	× I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.	✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.	× Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	× I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.	× I don't like to chew gum.
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.	× I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.	✓ I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
× I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.	✓ I love to sing.
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	× I have a custom-built computer.	× I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.	× I've gone skinny-dipping.	✓ I've performed in three plays.
✓ I enjoy burritos.	× I'm Irish and loving it.	✓ I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!	× Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.	× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
× I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.	× I sleep more than 12 hours a day.	× I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
✓ I need more time to myself.	× I wish I was more open-minded.	× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
× I download songs from the internet.	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	× I say random things to freak people out.
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.	× I love playing Truth or Dare.	× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
× Music helps me remember that I am not alone.	× Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	× I think this survey is particularly long.
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.	× I can only hate someone that I love.	× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.

Sorry. i can't resist

2006-03-23T05:50:18Z

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Whale Soundings

2005-11-06T17:58:10Z

I have been fat since I was a small kid. I am so wrapped up in the fat identity it almost makes it hard to lose weight because as I get thinner I don't know who I am anymore. I lost almost 50 pounds in less than 4 months and have hovered just under a 60 pound loss for the last 3 months. I think I am afraid to be thinner. I have been single now for 5 years and have been on exactly 2 dates. Being fat has been a protective shield for me for a really long time. As long as I was fat, I didn't have to deal with having feelings for people or interrelating because I could blow it off as "They won't want to go out with me because I am fat" and that has been fine with me.

I think that as a teen the fat probably protected me because growing up when AIDS was a new thing, and I was just getting into my sexuality, I probably would have whored myself out to anyone who would give it to me, and I would be dead now.

I think my biggest fear is to be in a frame where if I say I love someone they can say that they don't love me back.

Chintzy Bitches

2005-10-05T03:49:57Z

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
BillyBoyLV goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Chicken.
amethyststar gives you 2 orange vanilla-flavoured gummy worms.
bluepose tricks you! You lose 1 pieces of candy!
jazzfanatic tricks you! You lose 1 pieces of candy!
legalmoose gives you 14 white strawberry-flavoured wafers.
mark3 tricks you! You get a piece of paper.
raivyn gives you 1 purple spearmint-flavoured gumdrops.
spaceblonde tricks you! You get a dead frog.
superinsomniac gives you 17 yellow peach-flavoured gumdrops.
tommyx gives you 3 blue strawberry-flavoured pieces of taffy.
yep_i_am_dennis gives you 13 teal raspberry-flavoured pieces of taffy.
BillyBoyLV ends up with 48 pieces of candy, a piece of paper, and a dead frog.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
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TOO TRUE

2005-09-28T04:42:11Z

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billyboylv @ 2005-08-16T10:26:00

2005-08-16T17:34:47Z

It is another hot and stifling day. Uggh! Oh well. Yesterday took the sprout to his mom's house to visit with his sisters. He had a good time, although toward the end, I really wanted to throttle him. Because he doesn't see his sisters all that much he tends to be really aggressive toward them, especially toward his younger sister. And now that there is another baby sister, he just wants to run around the house with her, which is not kosher since he is six and she is 3 months old. Otherwise, all went well. I was glad for him. A couple of the girls are going to come over for a day or two. My mom pays them sometimes to help do extra housework. It gives them a little bit of money (which they never get) and a little bit of help for me (which I could really use sometimes.)

Anyway, such is life.

I must have been insane

2005-08-15T16:33:05Z

For some reason, I was walking through the grocery store yesterday when I looked over, saw a package of sliced liver, and thought, "Gee, wouldn't that be neat to have for dinner?" So I bought it, went home, found a recipe for Berlin Style Liver with Apples and cooked it up.

I didn't barf.

Actually, it was pretty good. I am not a liver person(have hated it since childhood), but I cooked it with apples and onions and it tasted okay. It helped that it was sliced thinly though. Liver has too much funky aftertaste.

So now I have eaten 2 things I thought I would hate forever and lived to tell the tale: Liver and chitlins (Just not together)

billyboylv @ 2005-08-13T14:50:00

2005-08-13T21:51:01Z

I thought this was really interesting

billyboylv @ 2005-08-04T22:50:00

2005-08-05T05:55:23Z

Sorry, I do not know how to do an LJ cut. I saw on a post from one of the sweetest people on my friends list, whom I will not name unless he wants to fess up in my replies. It is from the movie The Aristocrats.

*****BE WARNED*****It is a joke told by Cartman and it is the absolute filthiest, foulest, nastiest joke I have ever heard.

I laughed so hard I choked, almost barfed, and then started to choke again.

Then I replayed it.

And laughed again.

It is at http://www.cartmanthearistocrats.com

I almost forgot

2005-07-14T06:07:43Z

Applied for a work study job at the Curriculum Materials Library on campus. Hoping I get it. The lady at the desk said they are really hurting for people and that they will most definitely call me early next week.It is basically the library for the college of education and they have a hard time finding Ed students who both qualify for work study and who want to work there. There are LOTS of great things about working there. They have all of these resources such as teaching tools and lesson prep kits and computer services. Plus there are some cuties who work there. Also, on the days I have class, I would be able to stay in the ed building from 830 am until 330 on Mondays and until 7 pm on Wednesdays without having to schlep all over campus.

Cross your fingers for me. On the weight watchers scale, I am still with the program. Bought some Weight Watchers cereal today. It was banana bran or something. It was on sale for $1.99 and only 3 points a bowl. There is a serious reason it was on sale.IT WAS VILE. I will stick to pouring my Peanut Butter Cap'n Crunch into a measuring cup and give up my Oreos if necessary.

Happy weekend!

Snap....Crackle...& POP!!!!

2005-07-14T05:58:17Z

Which is exactly what my knee did this afternoon when I went to sit on the edge of my mom's bed and I moved too fast. I felt it pop out of joint and then I suddenly heard this loud noise that sound like a bubble wrap explosion. I started screaming and whining and it hurt like HELL!!!!! Luckily it went back in and then I took a handful of advil. It hurts a little but i am afraid of it. I can walk on it, but I am really tentative. I am afraid to make it worse. I am afraid that I will take an unstable step and that it will hyperextend. Unfortunately I gave up my insurance 2 months ago and now I don't know if I should just wait and see if it improves or if I should drag my fat crippled ass to the free clinic on campus.

Let them eat cake!!!!!!!!

2005-06-17T03:06:19Z

Don't ya just adore Marie Antoinette? I have great news on the recipe front. Learned in Weight Watchers that you can take a box of cake mix and whisk it to gether with a 12 ounce can of diet soda (pepsi or some other cola for chocolate, sprite,etc for white cake) and then bake it at 350 degrees for 30 minutes and VOILA!!!!! PIG PARTY! It is only 3 points per serving as opposed to 12 points depending on the mix. Then you can save some points for frosting, or just eat a little bit more cake! I used some diet sierra mist with a pineapple cake mix and it was SOOOOOO delicious. I also put some fat free whipped cream on top which only added 1 point to my piece.

Phoenix Project-2

2005-06-04T21:19:41Z

Well, I went to WW today and after being up 6.6 lbs last week (weighed in the pm, plus wore heavy clothes, plus was constipated x 2 days(don't ask) so I maybe really gained 1.5 lbs at most)

I lost 10.8 lbs! Woo hoo. which is really only about 5 real lbs, but I don't really care. I have lost 58.6 lbs, and I got my 10% keychain and also a pin for my 16 wks.

I ended my 1st summer class on Friday, and my new class starts Monday morning. I am somewhat nervous, but I think it will be alright.I had a line on a summer job, but it fell through. Oh well. I shall carry on.

P. S. I had a teacher for my Environmental Science class who was WAY woofy, probably late 30's, attractive and sweet as hell. And still single. God, if I was thinner I would totally have made a pass (because I am a slut who has no sense of personal boundaries :) ) For the first time the other day, I looked in the bathroom mirror and started to see a change in my face. It was so cool. I almost have a real neck. AND WHEN I LOOK STRAIGHT AHEAD.......

I ONLY HAVE ONE CHIN. :)

The Phoenix Project

2005-05-23T04:33:58Z

Well. Last week was definitely a big week for the little endeavorI have comne to refer to as The Phoenix Project. Basically I have been trying to take this year and build something better from the ashes of who I was before. Last week I managed to lose 8.8 pounds! Hooray for me!

SO far in the past 14 weeks I have lost a toal of 54.2 pounds. I am really glad. The big loss this week was mostly due to working out at the gym 4 times. I had not been in a gym except for 2 times in the last 4 years. It felt really good and so far people have been really encouraging.

Also a lot of eye candy can't hurt either. :) This was also my first week of going to school full time since I quit my job.All is well. I got to see my friends from work last night. We went bowling, where half of my freinds got loaded. I really pissed off one girl who has been flirting with me because she said there was this really hot young guy at the bowling alley that she was sorta talking too.So then, as a joke, I told her that if she wanted to make things really interesting, she could take both of us back to her place and we would have a really good time. Never joke about sex with a drunk chick!

Anyway. I still had fun and it was nice to see everyone.

Weekly Update!!!!!!!Drum Roll Please!!!!!!!!

2005-04-09T19:16:57Z

Went to Weight Watchers this morning. This week I lost 4.2 lbs!! Yeah! The big man is back on track. It is about freakin' time. So far I have lost a total of 37.8 pounds. I feel better, look better, and I have more energy.

Now if only parenting was going as well......