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Friday, June 26th, 2009
2:42 pm	It's finally over Dad passed yesterday morning. His blood pressure simply dropped and he was gone. As far as I know, he went peacefully, without incident. He was in the hospital for almost 3 weeks. Now we are fighting the fight for ashes so that I can have Thomas with me to scatter Dad's ashes probably next summer. My stepmother won't give me a portion of the ashes because it "divides him up", so I am asking her to either let me have his ashes or to wait to scatter them until next summer. Now I have to wait. His funeral services are tomorrow in Texas. Meanwhile, I am back home. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 13th, 2009
5:11 pm	Back in Texas I haven't been here in almost two years. This time it is because I got a phone call Sunday saying my dad was in the hospital and I needed to come say goodbye. He was working in the yard last Saturday and the next thing you know he is calling from the yard for help. He was taken to the hospital where he lay on a ventilator for 5 days until I arrived by road. I had to wait til Monday to leave because I had to check out of my classroom for the summer. He looked so horrible. His eyes were rolled back in his head and he was very incoherent. When I got close to him and we were alone I told him it was okay to go with Granny and Grandaddy if they came for him. I asked him later when he was a little more lucid if he was ready to die and if he wanted the tubes removed, and he told me yes. I told my stepsister what he said and she apparently told everyone else now that I want to kill my father and they have tried to make moves to get my dad's medical power of attorney. I understand that they love him and don't want him to die. But he has been sick for almost 5 years now. He has been oxygen after they removed his lung and he has been in the hospital at least 5 times in the last year. This is the first time I have been called and told to come by my aunt who is here. Otherwise, no one had even bothered to call and tell me he was in the hospital. Luckily my Dad is showing improvement now. They took out the tubes today but he is not talking yet. He also has very little if any motion since being sedated for nearly a week. My dad I think is angry with me. I don't know if he is mad because I was willing to let him go or if he is angry because he wanted to die and I didn't insist that they let him.He was always clear that he didn't want to be on life support. I feel like such a jerk... Current Mood: numb (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 19th, 2009
4:14 pm	No Child Left Behind As a teacher, I just want to go on the record and say that THIS BILL SUCKS! IMHO, they should NEVER name bills. They should assign them a number and attach a 1-2 sentences summary tag to explain the gist of what it is about. To name a bill No Child Left Behinds is a polarizing move in itself. To vote against a bill with such a name amlounts to political suicide in the longrun. In the bill they name in order to repeal NCLB, they might as well call it "Drown All of the Puppies and Kittens Bill." Because really, who is going to stand up and publicly state they want to "leave a child behind". Politicians, lobbyists, and people who name bills can be real assholes! (This does not include those of my LJ friends who work for great big government agencies (Legalmoose). (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, April 17th, 2009
8:54 pm	Alone......Ahhhhhhhh..& NAKED NEWS Due to a never ending deluge of family drama that includes 5 children that are not mine currently living under my roof along with my exwife who has lupus, it has been very difficult lately to take a deep breath without having someone hear it. Well, the ex has gone to Arizona to go to the hospital, taking 3 of the kids to stay at other relatives for a couple of weeks. The two who remain here are at the movies with my mom tonight swooning over uberhottie Zac Efron (I love that hotass Rolling Stone cover he did a ways back, and if that makes me a bit pervy so be it.) So anyway, this gives me a perfect chance to finish the last bit of my masters class since I am alone at the computer. Which explains why I am on LJ instead. I am such a slacker lately I will work tomorrow all day and relish the quiet tonight! So I am woatching tv and decide to see what is on Pay Per View and they have this thing called Naked News. Okay,so it was only $5.99 and I could not resist the curiosty of what it would be like [even though I am gay and prefer nude dudes instead of gelatin engorged titty television.] PURE DRIVEL!!!!! I laughed my ass off it was so bad. Imagine watching inside edition and as Deborah Norville is spilling the news , she starts to take off her clothes one article at a time until she is standing there completely nude and bald from the neck down (ooooooh! or more like ewwwwwwwwwww!) And the correspondents are not all that hot either. Cellulite and bad lipo, collagen, and nipples the size of tuna cans. IT WAS SO WRONG!! The only thing that could have made it any funnier would have been liquor, drugs, or both. I had to record 5 minutes of it so I can show it to friends to prove it really exists in all its vapid glory! Current Mood: giggly Current Music: BOM CHiCka WAH WAH! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, April 13th, 2009
5:26 pm	Rural dating scene Sometimes it really sucks being a teacher at a rural elementary school when you are gay. There are some majorly hot dads that drop off their kids at school in the morning and pick them up in the afternoon. They are often in various states of dress, ranging from suits and ties to boyshorts with buff, beefy thighs and stretched to the max t-shirts. Unfortunately, in a rural town, if you are dropping off your kiyou are either not gay or if you are you just don't know it or aren't ready to acknowledge. Oh well. I guess for now it means that I get to slobber and drool at morning playground duty. DRAT Current Mood: horny (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, April 10th, 2009
7:49 pm	Long time gone It has been a long time since I posted. I tried to post earlier today, but nothing has appeared yet. I don't know if that means that I am inept (probably) or if there is a time gap for LJ (possibly). It is really nice to see what has been going on with some of my old friends since I have been incommunicado. I will write more later. Current Mood: cheerful (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, January 5th, 2008
10:45 am	Finally Moving! After over a year of commuting 90 minutes each way on a daily basis to teach, I am finally moving! I've spent the last week doing various repairs, patches, and painting at the new house. It's only 2 miles from work! Hooray! It's a foreclosure house, and the people who lived there left all sorts of holes and shit in the walls, and the A/C and hot water had to be replaced. They also loosened some of the plumbing fixtures to make them leaky, so I have had to deal with all of that crap. Luckily, the bank I bought it from fixed most of the things and I have family helping with the rest. I get to move all of the furniture next weekend. I AM SO JAZZED! :) YAY ME! Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: I Can Hear The Bells (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, July 16th, 2007
5:37 pm	I'm going on vacation!!!!!! Next week I am leaving on vacation for about 3 weeks. Sprout and I are leaving Las Vegas and driving all the way to Southeast Texas. We will probably drive through Arizona and stop with family the first day. Then (if I can get in touch with my beloved Superinsomniac ) we will stay in New Mexico the 2nd night before trekking the rest of the way to Houston the last day. This would save me an oodle of money on motel rooms and allow us to spend more time with my dad becuase we could leave a few days earlier than originally planned. I haven't seen my dad in about 3 years, and he had to have a lung removed last year. He has steadily lost more air capacity with each successive doctors checkup. Basically this is going to be my last chance to see him before he has to be hospitalized or put in hospice (although we haven't said this aloud). There are alot of memories we want to make before the end, especially so that Sprout can remember some really cool things about his granddad. :) Current Mood: drained Current Music: Bridge Over Troubled Water by Johnny Cash (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, July 9th, 2007
9:07 pm	If Harvey and Bea made a baby, it would sound like me... Well, I finally got Sprout's bedroom painted. I locked myself in for several hours with the windows shut and the door closed to keep the paint fumes away from my mom, and primered all of the walls with double and triple coats. Not my finest decision.... For the first week afterward I had no voice hardly at all except for a raspy whisper. I could barely breathe, and I had to sleep sitting up on the couch. My larynx also hurt like hell, like it had been partially cooked and was a nasty lump. Even now I sound like a cross between Harvey Fierstein and Bea Arthur. It ain't pretty, bitches, not pretty at all. I went subbing today to earn money for my trip to Texas to see my dad and I was in a first grade class. By lunch time, my voice was almost gone. I am really starting to be afraid that my voice will not be back to normal before school starts at the end of August. I am afraid to go to a doctor because I don't want bad news. That and I can't really afford a copay and medicine (which will be required I am sure) in addition to the royal screwing I take each month helping with mom's meds and Sprout's doctor appointments. Current Mood: chipper (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, June 15th, 2007
5:48 pm	Wow....It's Only Been 47 weeks since my last post Damn, I can't believe I haven't posted in almost a year. I read from time to time, but I have been playing the lurker card for WAY TOO LONG. I probably have no friends left online. Let's see, what has been happening? I made it through my first year of teaching 2nd grade, and it has been really cool. I teach at the school in the town where SuperInsomniacFreak's mom and dad got remarried. I love the town. I have been commuting every day 150 miles roundtrip to do so. My goal this summer is to sell my house here and get moved closer to work for the fall. Sprout has been doing much better in school up there, but he is getting sick of the drive as well. Also, my ass keeps getting fatter because I snack on the way to and from school in order to stay awake. In the new town, there are lots of opportunities for healthy and fun exercise for Sprout and I both. I really look forward to moving. I adore my school and the kids and the town and all of the cool-as-hell shit they get to do. Mom is still sick, but maintaining the status quo. Now that I am on summer break, we have been packing up crap and putting it in storage to declutter for potential homebuyers. It sucks royally. I wish we could move and leave the house empty while we wait for a buyer, but we just can't afford to. I have been prepping Sprout's room to repaint because he thought it was fun to paint orange circles on his wall that look like BREASTS. It's really sad. I am going to kill the child if I find one more booger stuck to the wall. Was I this disgusting as a child? I hope not, but Mom says I was. Yuck! Anyway, I hope all is well with the friends here. Take care. Write back if you want. XOXOXOXO BBLV Current Mood: lethargic Current Music: The Bitch Is Back by Tina Turner (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 16th, 2006
12:20 am	(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.) ✓ I miss somebody right now. × I don't watch much TV these days. ✓ I own lots of books. ✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses. × I love to play video games. ✓ I've tried marijuana. ✓ I've watched porn movies.  (and have the carpal tunnel to prove it) × I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. × I believe honesty is usually the best policy. ✓ I curse sometimes. × I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. × I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. ( it goes on... ) (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 23rd, 2006
5:49 am	Sorry. i can't resist Your Outrageous Name is: Homer Sexual Outrageous Name Generator (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, November 6th, 2005
9:55 am	Whale Soundings I have been fat since I was a small kid. I am so wrapped up in the fat identity it almost makes it hard to lose weight because as I get thinner I don't know who I am anymore. I lost almost 50 pounds in less than 4 months and have hovered just under a 60 pound loss for the last 3 months. I think I am afraid to be thinner. I have been single now for 5 years and have been on exactly 2 dates. Being fat has been a protective shield for me for a really long time. As long as I was fat, I didn't have to deal with having feelings for people or interrelating because I could blow it off as "They won't want to go out with me because I am fat" and that has been fine with me. I think that as a teen the fat probably protected me because growing up when AIDS was a new thing, and I was just getting into my sexuality, I probably would have whored myself out to anyone who would give it to me, and I would be dead now. I think my biggest fear is to be in a frame where if I say I love someone they can say that they don't love me back. Current Mood: contemplative (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 4th, 2005
8:49 pm	Chintzy Bitches My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul BillyBoyLV goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Chicken. amethyststar gives you 2 orange vanilla-flavoured gummy worms. bluepose tricks you! You lose 1 pieces of candy! jazzfanatic tricks you! You lose 1 pieces of candy! legalmoose gives you 14 white strawberry-flavoured wafers. mark3 tricks you! You get a piece of paper. raivyn gives you 1 purple spearmint-flavoured gumdrops. spaceblonde tricks you! You get a dead frog. superinsomniac gives you 17 yellow peach-flavoured gumdrops. tommyx gives you 3 blue strawberry-flavoured pieces of taffy. yep_i_am_dennis gives you 13 teal raspberry-flavoured pieces of taffy. BillyBoyLV ends up with 48 pieces of candy, a piece of paper, and a dead frog. Go trick-or-treating! Username: Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 27th, 2005
9:41 pm	TOO TRUE <td align="center"> Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com</td> NUFF SAID! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 16th, 2005
10:26 am	It is another hot and stifling day. Uggh! Oh well. Yesterday took the sprout to his mom's house to visit with his sisters. He had a good time, although toward the end, I really wanted to throttle him. Because he doesn't see his sisters all that much he tends to be really aggressive toward them, especially toward his younger sister. And now that there is another baby sister, he just wants to run around the house with her, which is not kosher since he is six and she is 3 months old. Otherwise, all went well. I was glad for him. A couple of the girls are going to come over for a day or two. My mom pays them sometimes to help do extra housework. It gives them a little bit of money (which they never get) and a little bit of help for me (which I could really use sometimes.) Anyway, such is life. Current Mood: groggy Current Music: Something spooky for my new icon (Comment on this)
Monday, August 15th, 2005
9:27 am	I must have been insane For some reason, I was walking through the grocery store yesterday when I looked over, saw a package of sliced liver, and thought, "Gee, wouldn't that be neat to have for dinner?" So I bought it, went home, found a recipe for Berlin Style Liver with Apples and cooked it up. I didn't barf. Actually, it was pretty good. I am not a liver person(have hated it since childhood), but I cooked it with apples and onions and it tasted okay. It helped that it was sliced thinly though. Liver has too much funky aftertaste. So now I have eaten 2 things I thought I would hate forever and lived to tell the tale: Liver and chitlins (Just not together) Current Mood: chipper Current Music: Suddenly Seymour from Little Shop (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 13th, 2005
2:50 pm	I thought this was really interesting Popular interests among BillyBoyLV's friends 1. music (18) 11. fantasy (9) 2. gay (15) 12. cooking (9) 3. writing (13) 13. cats (9) 4. gay men (12) 14. queer as folk (8) 5. movies (12) 15. dvds (8) 6. reading (11) 16. gay sex (8) 7. computers (10) 17. masturbation (7) 8. sex (10) 18. love (7) 9. science fiction (10) 19. star trek (6) 10. men (9) 20. queer (6) Interests gestalt My most interesting friend is shkspr13 who has 13 of these interests, followed by tommyx (13), yep_i_am_dennis (12) and christopherz (12). Normality Index My friends are 97.54% normal. Analyze me ! Username: Popular interests created by _imran_ (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 4th, 2005
10:50 pm	Sorry, I do not know how to do an LJ cut. I saw on a post from one of the sweetest people on my friends list, whom I will not name unless he wants to fess up in my replies. It is from the movie The Aristocrats. *****BE WARNED*****It is a joke told by Cartman and it is the absolute filthiest, foulest, nastiest joke I have ever heard. I laughed so hard I choked, almost barfed, and then started to choke again. Then I replayed it. And laughed again. It is at http://www.cartmanthearistocrats.com (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 13th, 2005
10:58 pm	I almost forgot Applied for a work study job at the Curriculum Materials Library on campus. Hoping I get it. The lady at the desk said they are really hurting for people and that they will most definitely call me early next week.It is basically the library for the college of education and they have a hard time finding Ed students who both qualify for work study and who want to work there. There are LOTS of great things about working there. They have all of these resources such as teaching tools and lesson prep kits and computer services. Plus there are some cuties who work there. Also, on the days I have class, I would be able to stay in the ed building from 830 am until 330 on Mondays and until 7 pm on Wednesdays without having to schlep all over campus. Cross your fingers for me. On the weight watchers scale, I am still with the program. Bought some Weight Watchers cereal today. It was banana bran or something. It was on sale for $1.99 and only 3 points a bowl. There is a serious reason it was on sale.IT WAS VILE. I will stick to pouring my Peanut Butter Cap'n Crunch into a measuring cup and give up my Oreos if necessary. Happy weekend! Current Mood: giddy Current Music: I must be high from too much advil (2 Comments |Comment on this)